Saturday, March 25, 2006
so long, so long since i last blogged.
Perhaps I'm just trying to hide from reality,
perhaps I'm getting a little too tired of this...
If you ask me how's my day, my reply would probably be..
like any other days..
but well, it ain't going well in school..
at the very least, not what my "ideality nature" expected.
Trying really hard to be optimistic,
to be smiling, to be sociable, to be less concerned about my appearances and so on...
but you know, its really tough to carry on doing all these...
I used to feel like an idiot in AJ,
now i feel rather like some genius in TPJC,
or maybe cos they're teaching all those topics again
but well, I'll prefer to be an idiot, seriously.
All the lessons are no longer as fun..
no big talks of the cat high ppl, no courageous actions of the dunman high ppl,
no girl talks between the girls ( cos they go gaga-ing over some guys ).
oh crap, i feel so bad... this is so crap!
complain complain complain...all I can do is complain...
I try, I really try, and I'm trying harder but where does it get me to?
anywhere?
you know some girls just keep laughing and laughing and laughing in class,
they seem so unreal...
I mean, its good that you're happy and stuffs like that but...
it just seems so unreal...... like pri school...
nevermind, I'm rather determined to work hard this time round.
So if i really can't mix well and the class remains so seperative after another 2 weeks,
I'll just be alone, studying in the library ba..
haix.
who cares.
that question was not meant to be asked..
when u asked that, i'm more determined to do what i've been wanting to do for the past week..
still remember that time when u said i sounded fierce?
and sometimes i just don't reply ur sms-es?
i'm growing tired of ur annoyance.
many a times, u ask the questions, demanding me to say something when i was about to say them.
end up that i'll rather not say it.
i can't understand you and make u smile or make u laugh..
seriously, i can't.
and you know it don't you?
so why don't you just leave me instead of me hurting you?
( i think u've seen the picture in ur mind when u asked that question..)
she can understand you better isn't it?
she can talk right out with you isn't it?
she can argue with you and make u laugh out loud isn't it?
i'm just another baby girl for u to console and adore when u want to be secured of yourself.
right?
posted @ 01:20
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