Friday, July 22, 2005
have u ever feel like breaking down?i think that song the phrase suits my feelings now.seriously, i feel so useless.i'm not a gd shepherd, not people-oriented, not sensitive to people's needs.wed,had cme lesson.. Mrs Goh taught us abt prioritising our work.there was this survey to prove whether we're either at procrastinator, prioritiser, yes-man or slacker.haha, guess who am i? a prioritiser.. HA HA HA not funny at all.i'm not at all.perhaps yes, i can prioritise,then later forgetthen later end up doing nothing.back to square one.that makes me both a prioritiser and a procrastinator.thurs,went esplande with xiwen n roxannejus for the haagen daz chocolate fudge cake...xiwen got the $10 voucher given by Mrs Goh anyway.then we ordered an espresso...it was seriously bitter...and rather sour..cheat our feelings, such a small tiny cup lohx.yeeks.then i went to find joel.he came tm anyway so find him 2 give his bookmark.he looked different...again....now his hair longer..it looked...... pretty ok,probably i'm just not tt used to it.at night we chatted on the phone..he told me about this song called gloomy sunday..it caused a lot of deaths and was banned..heard its released again.then we chatted about some church staffs..then he helped me about looking after my 4 sheep.hmm... he really is a sensitive guy, knows a lot abt how people feel..then we also talked abt last time...i guess it was a great chat..to open ourselves to each other again.and make things clear again.i realise,i was really childish...though i was told tt i'm mature...today, friday,went to dunman high for the social studies symposium.don't really like the whole thing..esp the 1st part by the professor...i expected alot frm him.in the end, he talked abt the case on the teacher n students idoling hitlerwell oh well, i felt tt it was of much use...and hitler is for history students only..n if u don't know, i don't take history for ur information.so it was rather wasted.. as in of no use to me.1 hr of no benefition.then was the tea break..nothng much abt tt.next the teacher's part..hmm, she went thru the "survival kit" pretty fast.den spent so much time on some kind-of-stupid hands on things.calling people out to compare their watches and bags and stuffs like tt.i felt.... not funny at all.at the end of the symposium, i felt tt it was not as beneficial as i thought it would be.disappointed.then worst thing is when we reached bus stop wanting to go home, xiwen suddenly say wanna walk to the other busstop where she got direct bus home.den i was like then we walk together lohx.in the end, it got quite serious...not until argument but xiwen was in bad mood.rather sad i think.i dunno how it became like tti dunno how to show care for her i think.i feel more useless than how she thinks she is.i took 2 hrs b4 i reached home... walked 2 busstops with xiwenden waited v long for the bus to go bedok interchange.in the end waited so long still nvr come..waited for abt 30-40 mins.in the end boarded another bus.so it took another 30 mins for the bus ride to bedok.so tt's how i took 2 hrs going home
posted @ 21:19
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